Gift From God

My sister said, and I quote, "this is a gift and to not share your gift is criminal. No expectations. No inhibitions. Just simply testifying through words is powerful".

For me, it's really what I needed to hear and it came at the right time.  I have been mostly private with my struggles, only letting a few people know they even exist, for fear of being judged and misjudged.  I understand the profound need to give way to the truth so that I can live this life as my most authentic self.  I have been helped in my own life with some powerful words from Oprah Winfrey.  I know that I have to open my life in order to help someone who may be struggling with similar issues.  As I read my sister's words, via a Facebook post, I knew that I had once again failed myself.

When I first started this blog I wanted it to be a true and honest reflection of me.  I wanted to get something out of me that I had not really spoken about.  I wanted to put a face on many of life's struggles.

I have read many books, magazines articles, Twitter and Facebook posts and watched many televisions programs about letting God use you.  I know that God has been trying to use me but I have getting in my own way. THAT STOPS TODAY!  I am going to do exactly what I set out to do with this blog...I WILL SPEAK THOUGHTS.  Not only will I speak those thoughts, but I will speak them without expectations nor inhibitions.  I will speak them through truth and deeper understanding.  I will speak them in peace of mind and growth of spirit.  I will speak them for the satisfaction of my own selfishness.  I will speak them for healing and rebuilding.  I will speak them from pain to redemption.  I will speak them from fear to love.  I will speak them through laughter and tears.  I will speak them through the eyes of my children and layers of my relationships.  I will speak thoughts so that I can be closer to GOD, the One who gave them to me.